She was so waiting for it, waiting for him.
But it’s so sad and mad.
So sad to find him and not still lovin’ him.
She misses him but she’s still thinking to find a way to explain him why she can’t fall in love so easily.
For every sweet and pretty word he says, all her thoughts go to
“ESCAPE, GO AWAY, WALK AWAY, RUN AWAY”
Is it maybe she stayed alone too long time? Is it because her dreams about him were too beautiful? Is it because she wished so strong to fall in love tenderly?
The only thing that she wants now is to say
“Don’t talk about love!”
She’s afraid about what he’s feeling for her: talking about love, talking about the future, talking about family so seriously…
Anyone who’s able to think "normally", would tell her not doing a mistake that she could regret.
But there’s something so huge, so bad, so black…the shadow of her dark side is back and seems like covering the brightest side of her heart. Her mind focuses on it but she doesn’t know when, where and with whom she could fail.
Because, now, she’s conscientious and she’s preparing her that day will come too soon…
She almost regret to meet him, regret to let him a chance and not back in time tell him she’s still not ready to be with someone.
And this day has come.
Try to explain BUT failed--> hurted, bleeded...
Too sincere, too honest…
She thought he could understand her mind, her ways.
But he didn't and now...
Did she win or did she lose someone ?
"I could never shine you more, my boy. And if you want to make me criminal, for you and for your hurts, I would be guilty. Even if, I don't really love you"
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